My Small skin infection is already clearing up, but i’m still taking Flucloxacillin for My chest, lungs and Kidneys and just everything on that list.
They don’t make a fool of me, as I even know when I am there and I just can’t believe how they all act when it comes down to it all. On My way out they had it open even for me in Boots to get this Medication after 6.00 pm and then they have to let us out, as My Doctor’s stays open later.
When I got My Medication, I said that’s a large amount and she said yes it will sort it all out for You and its got so silly in that they had to wait for me to so call go in with something and not just be honest about I had infections all the time and then think I am going to be taken in by that, when in fact I had all My own tests done and can get hold of most things needed and what a carry on.
When I was in Summerlands Hospital, they would talk to me about how we shouldn’t let abusers get away with hurting us in anyway and how when we sometime face it all or get answers we can heal and how to not be put on in life or used and all this rubbish I realise now, as it was The N.H.S that have ended up abusing me worst in life what with all that over My mental health and now all this with Doctors and Yeovil Hospital and so now its like My life was just a farce for Years, as they go on about abusers and yet when they The Professional abuse us, they just want us to forget it all and be treated so bad and so I can’t believe now in any of the life I was living in for Years before all this and just wasted My life away when I was in fact healthy and then we spend Years going on about our passed only to lose our Kids and future.
Its such a learning process and its better to learn it all as early in life as possible, as who want to end of and wake up and realise how much life has been lost and health as gone and knowing its going to be hard to get back up, but we still have to live in hope that whatever we will make it and find another life and not suffer anymore.
In these Cases they go on about our Teenager days and what we did and things that did happen and even the bad times I would take back over all this, as I also spoke to another Woman about this and they can say as a young Girl we had a few drinks and got abused at a Party, which is in fact in My Care Proceedings Case and over 30 Years ago and also in adoption Papers, but what is worst in life to have Your body abused by someone or by trusted Doctors and our minds abused as well and so bad things may happen in life, but talking about them to a Psychiatrist can in fact end up making our lives ever worst and losing our future and nothing is as terrible and tormenting at all this in Life and who can You ever truth again in life, as we have no trust and no compassion once Cover-up’s start and they can’t seem to stop when they start and so best if we never have to suffer all this and none of us can help getting ill in our health, but Mental health and telling everything we did as a teenager is not wise when they can bring it all up at anytime and You never expect 30 Years later that everyone is going to be sat around reading everything and so nothing we ever do or say is in fact Private once these things start.
When I saw a Private Doctor in 2012, he said that see what can happen and all really for nothing and I think You have now really learn from all this and that’s what its all about, as when we get hit so hard we change and never want to go back within The Mental health System or to life as it was before and I just wish I got out and changed and had more life before all this, as I waited too late really and it also took it of My health, but I still did it and hope others will wake up and never go back to any old life that wasn’t really working for them or doing them any good in life, as its so easy to fall back when kicked in the face again, but its never the answer and I would never been going back Myself.
I can’t believe so much Corruption and abuse does go on and can’t understand why I didn’t even see it before and now its everywhere and its like we can picked out once we have ever been involved and everyone gets to know who we are within The Government and N.H.S.
It like living in a Prison really and we can’t really go anywhere or do anything without them knowing everything.
I wish that I could just leave now and go somewhere to be treated and given correct care and have a few Months getting My health together, as that’s what I really need so Experts in all this and just get over all My infections and heath Problems and just get as well as is possible after all this and give me a best chance in life, as i’m not really getting any real care here and don’t think I ever will now and so I need to get away as quickly as possible if I could get correct care and don’t see the point just hanging around here just for them to all mess about and take Weeks for Medical Notes, as My health has to be most important and I don’t see them ever acting normal and just stop all this Corruption. I don’t feel like even messing about with them all anymore, as they don’t care about My health at all and I’m not sure which way to go at the moment and will just wait and see what My Solicitor does say next Week, but nobody would believe how they all carry on in Cover-up’s and I am so interested to see if they act as badly with others and still go on and still go on and on and never say Sorry like with me. I saw the News today and it was about Doctors saying Sorry, as if its more easy now and they don’t say sorry or ever write that they are sorry and its all rubbish, as all I have had is terrible treatment and they said its sorry and then best care and treatment after that and do all possible in putting things right and its not happening at all here in Yeovil, somerset.
Its no point them coming on Television saying how things will be and then I know for sure sorry is never coming My way or now good care and treatment, but instead still trying to go on and Cover-up and they can’t stop themselves and so terrible injustices are going on and that’s so bad, as they can’t be horrible to us for wanting standards in life and nobody should accept such Standards that I have had to bear in all this now with Yeovil Hospital.
I hate living here now, but then its no life in Britain once involved with The Government and N.H.S and when I first even got involved in it all back in 2011, then I just never understood what does and can go on, but many out there still would be in shock if they found it all out and so what does go on is one big Cover-up on its own and I can’t live here now after all this carry on.