Just been to The Doctor about My health and she ask did I have voices in My head and she was now very concerned about My Mental health. I told her I didn’t have voices in My head and never did have voices in My head and it was always thoughts and that’s what You get with anxiety and O.C.D in life and when we are most tormented and that torment goes on and on, then it does get worst in life and when we get more peace, then it’s not so bad and it’s also do with a mind that goes over everything and I understand what I suffer and I understand the different between Psychotic and Neurotic in life and I realise due to what has gone on at times I come under Neurotic, but I also know I am talking sense and was just trying hard to sort My own health and life out with so much torment and confusion going on all around me.
I don’t need to see anyone within The Mental health system or in fact go back within the Mental health System, as it all never worked or did any good before and what I wanted most was to just move away from that life and not end up going back into something that never worked out and for many People, it’s better to just move forward then go back into something that never did us any good or go on living a life that we were not really happy with and so sometimes we need to take a risk and just go forward and take a change, but only when we feel nothing could be much worst then it already is in life or in our own Country.
I told My Doctor yet again that I was only interest in My health and as after today she doesn’t still feel anything at all is wrong with me, then I don’t see the point of hanging around in Britain and have no reason to stay here anymore.
Dr. Parker wrote chest infection and groin infection after I was told just a skin infection and given Flucloxacillin and then when I went to see another Doctor just the other day, she got it up on screen and said chest and groin infection and now today My Doctor is saying it was just a small nothing much bump infection and took My Reports instead from The BMI and Life Scan and said she was very interested in having them.
Then she said how she had not had time to read all My notes from Dr. Latimer, as it was so many, but she was happy to see me next Week after reading notes from The BMI and Life Scan, as she had not got around yet to reading all My notes from Yeovil Hospital and she thinks nothing is wrong with me, but maybe I have voices in My head and I need to go back to see someone at Summerlands Hospital.
I told her I was a bit sick of everything and was even thinking about forgetting about a Solicitor and she said yes best forget about a Solicitor, as it’s only going to end up costing You lots of money in the end and I said it won’t cost me anything, as it’s No Win, No Fee, but I have found that I had suffered more since getting a solicitor involved and maybe it is best if no Patients do get a Solicitor against The N.H.S, as no money is worth such torment in life and so I could understand that Patients wouldn’t do that or just give up on a Solicitor and she did feel it would be better for me to also give up on a Solicitor and drop everything.
So not got anything for My health and I think time has come when I need to just forget My health and leave it that My last conversation with My Doctor is I am saying I am unwell and it’s been going on for Year’s with inflammation and infections and that’s what has been causing all My problems and My Doctor saying still nothing is wrong with me and she has not read BMI or Life Scan or Dr. Latimer notes or all My Hospital notes yet, as has not had time, which I can understand would take much time giving so much to go over.
I am sick of it all now today and just feel it’s all a waste of time and money and all these Private heath assessments, saying You got this and that, as I believe I am unwell, but then it’s just in My mind and like My Doctor has just said she doesn’t know about anything being wrong with me and so maybe I best leave it as that and forget health care in Britain.
Just forget everything and get on with life, as I have decided to accept nothing is wrong with me now after today and it’s all just in My head.
I have no worry now about leaving Britain and can leave as soon as possible now and just forget everything, as My Doctor today didn’t feel that I needed any Medication at all or treatment or anything other then seeing her again next Week after she has read Dr. Latimer notes and Hospital notes and BMI and Life Scan and I don’t really want to hang around here anymore when no need in life and well enough to leave Britain now.
Or I stay here and just drop My Solicitor, as that way there won’t torment me so much in life and none of us should ever get a Solicitor involved within The N.H.S in the first place, as I notice how worst I got treated as soon as I got a Solicitor and it’s just not at all worth it in life.