I had a telephone call from someone living in Dowlish Wake in Somerset. He ask me to ring Dr. Karl Schmidt, as he told me that Karl had been trying to contact me for along time, but didn’t have My address and also he had been ring the wrong number. This was just a couple Weeks ago now in 2015 and I had not heard from Karl in Years and so I said that I expect it was due to fact I send a Christmas Card. I did think maybe his Village friend was ringing me to say Karl had passed away, as he is 98 Years of age now and will be 99 in September.
So I got his number again and rang him and talked about how I had been ill and he knew My stomach was swollen Years ago back in 2011 and so I was telling him it had all gone down now and that I had been unwell all the time and ask him about Gall Stones. He said that prevention is better then cure and all that, but like I said I never knew I had them or that anything was wrong with me and even as I didn’t feel that well even back then, I didn’t know. Then he said I would have had it all for Years before I stated getting problems and it’s only when it’s all causing such problems that we have to have something done and so it is a bit late in the day now with it all going so far and getting so ill, but I have to try everything possible and make sure I do exercises everyday and give pushing myself.
Then he ask me out for dinner and I said I don’t want it, as I can’t eat anymore and no way could I go out and have a meal. So he said come out his house and do exercises with him and I told him nothing he could do would help me, as he is a Psychiatrist and I am more interested in my stomach these days.
I know that I was so very interested in Psychiatry and Mental Health back in 2011. I wanted to try and understand it all and I was waking up with such a shock on all I was finding out and learning.
I had The Care Proceedings in 2011 and I met Dr. Schimidt also in 2011. Then I went on and got so ill in Yeovil Hospital in 2014.
I started to realise what was going on and wanted to read all these books and files he had on everything and then he gave me a key to his house and I would go in sometime while he was away. I would clean and tidy up and spend time reading as much as possible and then one time he was away on holiday and so I stay there reading files and books and then I opened his deck and was looking at his passed life. When he came back I told him what I had done and what I had found out and I said to him that his life was so much more interesting then my life and so maybe we should sit down and talk about him instead of me for a change and he just told me everything about his whole life. I had been going on talking about my life and mess and what I had done, mistakes and hurt and pain and yet it was nothing compared to his life, as all I had been was naïve and had trusted Professionals very much and I had also love and been emotional and loved my Son, but I had never done anything bad in my life or wrong and never broken The Law or anything.
It was a big learning lesson for me meeting Karl and also a big shock along with The Care Proceedings and that shock has continue on with getting so ill and ending up with sepsis in Yeovil Hospital in April 2014 and all that has gone on since then. It’s trauma, but also learning and waking up to what can and does go on in life.
Dr. Karl Schmidt always said to me that ” I was the good and he was the bad” and that is because he knew about my life and I knew about his. He also said that he didn’t care if it all did come out after he was dead and he would just laugh from his grave, as he would have lived out his wonderful life.
This did keep me fighting over my Son, as I realised life wasn’t fair and so I did have some stuff that would remind me that how different life can be and how different we can get treated and when My son was put forward and passed within adoption panel, I was alone at home in my bedroom with a pile of papers on me from The Case and a pile of some Papers I had copies from Dr. Schimdt house and I broke down crying then in January 2012, but knew I was going to fight on with everything I had on knowing it was so wrong for both My son and Myself and many Patients and Children.
So I send a Christmas Card to Karl and I learn such a lot, but as for going out there again, well I said no thanks, as I don’t want to find out anymore, as I have found out so much since 2011.